tagalog na pagdadalamhati

again..

let the heart do its talking.

i've never been so confused my whole life. i never been the happiest yet the loneliest. i am happy having kuya by my side. i had a best friend who would always be there even if i do not know he's there. one who'd only listen and not dictate. one who'd make me feel happy, when i am sad about another guy.

yet, the same way, a guy brings me so much sadness. sadness i caould only feel when i am alone. when the world is asleep and i am alone. until finally, i am ok again. and then here comes some friends bringing back memories that should be long forgotten by now.

i should live by my rules.

i actually try to. and i do.

so can i just request my "friends" to be happy for what i have. for who i am. for who i have. and for who i am enjoying my time with.

hindi ko naman kau ginagayan ah. hindi o kayo dinidiktahan. bakit kailangan niyo gawin yan sa akin? hindi laging "kaming dalawa lang" ng taong iniisip niyong magiging katuluyan ko. hindi rin dahil kasama ko araw araw, kausap araw araw ay nagkakagusto. hindi dahil masaya akong kasama siya, pinagpapalit ko kayo. kailangan ba laging pinaglalaban ang langis sa tubig? pwede namang magbigay ang isa. nagbibigay na siya. kayo na lang inaantay. alam niyo ba yon? syempre hindi.

magulo na tayo.

magulo na kami.

mas lalong magulo kami nung isang nangiiwan tapos bumabalik.

puwede bang hayaan niyo na lang???

naiinis na ako. ayoko na.