explanations

i really acted impulsively last tuesday night that i know nobody could have understood what i meant to say by that blog i wrote.

i was really irritated by the fact that i was not classmates with most people i am expecting to be classmates with. i am not truly sad with the outcome of my section, but my point is that teh majority of people i want to eb with was not with me. Flor, jamie, shena, allan and everyone else. when it was the time when i need to be with my peeps, that's when they take me away from them. when i heard the news, i really cried. i know, it's a really shallow problem. but when you are in my position you;d actually understand what it feels.

what's left of that is nothing but to look at the brighter side of life that i could still possibly have. it's not so bad after all. i am with johanna(my buddy i missed so much), teresa (i missed her too since i was not her classmate last SY) and kang(ever trustworthy kang).

i still am set to have a great school year. and i know, i'd still make the most of it.
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i heard about something today.

and i can only say one thing.

as you try to forget something, it's actually really hard. it is very depressing. especially in a case where you are revolving around that something taht is involved in a someone whos is in the same circle of friends and around the same people you had grown up together with.

i do no want this to be "double-standard-ed" just because this has something to do with me, but, i do hope you do not give up one that dream.. whether you believe it or not, i actually had become used to that dream. it is something that actually wakes me up in teh morning and tells me a reason why i have to work hard right now. don't give up on me.. don;'t give up on that dream. but... if you are so sure that you really want to leave all this behind, do not let me keep you.

i'd let you go n that own dream of yours. even if that means i am not included in it. that's what it is all about.

however all this ends up, i would actually be glad that i had you once.