how...

there are many things i should be grateful for. i have a future for one. i will eb studying in the college of my choice.. and at the same time, i supposedly be one of the "successful" people in life as they say.. AS THEY SAY.. as they say, i would be very bright.. i had a whole life in front of me.. i have a very promising start, and that alone shows what caliber i have. what potential i hide, and how shining i suppposedly be. ALL OF THESE, AS THEY SAY.

but what is it then, that it always come across that there is THAT thing that i never could have.. at the very least, THAT thing, that is actually at my fingertips..

a while ago this afternoon.. i dazed out while having a phone conversation with a friend... something was on my mind.. something was occupying my mind..something that had been long been bothering me..

how do you prioritize when it comes to friends? how do you know that this one is more importantwith the other, that this one is less important? how do you assess those things? how do you spend time with another, then another one, without one of those people you spend time with step on the other's nerves? how do you mix hot and cold? i supposed you don't do that in the first place right? but how would your time be in unison with all that?