IN DREAMS

i actually am smiling. without any legitimate reson to smile. which is actually very ironical.

my life is not like before. i came a long way from the life i once had. which was actually only a year ago. 365 days ago i knew what i want. i had a grip on myself. i had the reign of the movie i call my life. i knew better than what i am now. or so i thought.

tapos ngayon.i stumble upon a page telling whoever reads it taht he does not know himself anymore and that he is confused and that he thinks he should go back to being a soloista.

selfishness!

had he looked a bit closer he would have known that it is exactly how people around him feel. i hate him for what i read. last night, i was touched by whatever it is he did for me. it was something i thought existed only IN DREAMS.