so that's how hard work feels.
yesterday, i received a really good grade in my philosophy paper. i was so happy, so happy in fact that it made me waste 220 bucks on coffee and bread. never mind that i have barely enough to cover for the two school days left of this week, that i have to go home late on friday and possiby commute, that i am without food at my boarding house, and that i will not probably eat for thursday and thursday. you have to reward yourself once in a while, right? so i did and the most convenient way is to spend it over ridiculously expensive coffee near my mom's office, and oh my lord! it feels good. just like it always do.
so now, right after this, just after my betty la fea wednesday ritual, i'm going back to studying. well, this would compensate for the way i did not study on my previous semester which caused a hug breakdown in part since i almost did not become a college scholar. i just hope at the end of the semester, the hard work will pay off.
i am now sealing this deal with my self. at the end of every goo little thing, coffee breaks are always welcome.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Advices from Taoism
Technology provides man with everything that our ancestors could have only dreamt of in their time. If they are to look at us, see how we live and inspect our houses they will probably amazed with all sorts of high-tech things they see. From our living room adorned with the latest entertainment system to our kitchens complete with gadgets that does the smallest things for us, all their jaws would have dropped and all eyes would have popped out. The twenty first century was like Neil Armstrong’s small step in the moon. It symbolized our giant leap forward.
What is very ironic though is that this giant leap forward is not only a leap toward success. As the bad comes with the good, this leap forward also meant a leap toward bigger challenges, pressures and obstacles. It is no wonder then how our elders, seeing the way we live nowadays, sigh and say that things were so much easier back then. With the availability of resources that will make everything easier, there is no more room for errors. Only perfection is expected of everything and thus, the fast paced and stressful life of today. Most of the time, then, all we do is worry over matters that are important to us but did not happen as we hoped it would. In the same way, we, of course, do not accept this outcome, fight it and then get ourselves into more trouble.
But this is actually solved by simple advices I have learned from Taoism, as emphasized in wu wei or the action-less action. It stresses that in the midst of everything, one should be like a swimmer, where the best way to go is to swim with the current and not against it. It is becoming one with how nature is, with how things are. In the discussion of Taoism, I picked out two quotations, previously provided, that, for me, tell the most interesting pieces of advice.
Advice 1: “Things don’t turn out the way they are supposed to. But what can you do? You must take life the way it comes to you and make the best of it.” –Life of Pi
The best piece of counsel I have received in my life is that nothing is perfect. We cannot assume that everything will be exactly the way we want it to be. There will always be the ditches in the road and the wrong turns we take from the main road and we can never stop this from happening. It simply is just the way things are. I don’t mean that one has not to worry about things just because it is like that. Worrying is a natural part of the human mind and there is no reason that we shouldn’t worry. This worrying, in fact, is quite positive as it helps us concentrate more and focus on getting to our end goal. What I mean by accepting the way things are is that the “things” I am referring to are the end product of what happens around us. If the milk has already spilled, it is then useless to cry over it. One must learn to move on.
On the very first time that I had not received a medal for class, I was in one of my most depressed moods. I felt like such a failure. It was the same feeling when I fell in love and had my heart broken for the very first time last year. But I would always remember my mom’s lecture about my too idealistic perception of things. “All you have to do is do your best and if things still did not work out, then maybe it is not really for you.” With this, she ends her statement saying that instead of sulking around, I should learn my lessons and then use them to live a new one.
As I have, for so many times, learned in my sixteen years of my life, failure would always be a part of our lives. They are similar to the crosses we carry each day and the similarity is that we all have one. I have mine, you have yours and they have theirs. It is inevitable. The only thing we could do is live our lives the way we want it to. We should experience each day and live as if it will be our last. If somewhere along the way we made a mistake, this should not stop us from living life. There are women who got pregnant in the early years of their lives, raised their children alone but still managed to become successful in their lives. The success stories of formerly small scale businesses like Aristocrat Restaurant, SM malls and Jollibee is a good example. They all started the same way: a small business, a dream, some problems and determination and yet the obstacles in their way never stopped them from doing anything. It is just a matter of dreams and making things work that make these stories successful.
If we exude happiness and contentment in our lives, chances are the same aura will be experienced by the people around us. If we are happy with our world and the way things are going for us, then the people that care for us would be happy and contented too. They will also exude the same thing and affect the people who care for them. It takes only one person to change something and it helps to think that we could take part in this magnanimous thing. Imagine that: if we just enjoy our lives, then the people around us will enjoy theirs too. As the saying goes, smile and the world will smile with you.
We just take life as it is. We take pleasure in the good things and endure the bad. There is no point in carrying bitterness around for so many years. You could only waste a lot of energy and just end up poisoning the people around you with it.
It is actually similar to driving. It is inevitable that you could be in an accident, or that you may hit something, or worst someone. There will always be that chance. But that doesn’t mean that you should not drive anymore. All you have to do is take it as it is, be careful in driving and then if you make a mistake, learn from it and employ it in your life. There would always be faults in our lives and something is bound to end up wrong; but again, every song has a coda, whether it crashes or it fades away, but it is no reason not to enjoy the music.
Advice 2: “Never is force opposed with force, instead, it is overcome with yielding.”
In high school, one of my favorite subjects was Filipino Literature. I was a big fan of Rizal’s novel and I learned a lot from them. One of these pieces of wisdom was from the character Pilosopong Tasyo. He was the town’s wise man. Often, he is thought to be lunatic, as he speaks in ways undecipherable to most of the townspeople. But his words often hold as the greatest piece of advice in the novel. One of these advices is what he gave to the protagonist, Crisostomo Ibarra. It is similar to the quote given in our lecture on Taoism. He told the protagonist, “Ang umilag sa punglo ay hind karuwagan. Ang humarap sa kamatayan ay katangahan.” (To avoid a bullet is not cowardice, but to look death in the eye is carelessness.) It was a point where he told Ibarra that the he should first kiss the hands of his enemies and do as they wish before his plans, of setting up a school for the children of the town, could work.
At Ibarra’s end, he had difficulty following the advice of Pilosopong Tasyo. This is understandable because he is asked to bow down before his enemies, and yet what his plans are not going to be harmful to the people. Clearly, this is the last thing he wants to do. This is the last thing we all want to do. Like all advices, this is easier said than done. It is the easier option to succumb to your instinct and attack your enemy the minute you get hurt than to bow down to him. But we always have another option, and in this case, it is the way of the Tao.
Water, which has represented the Tao, will wear down a rock in the end; however big or strong it might be. Yielding to the forces around us does not mean we give up. It is just pretending to give up, doing as what your opponents ask of you. Only in this manner, you are actually manipulating them too. When they assume that you are already seeing it in their way, they would think that you will be one of them. This would make trust easier to come by and when you gain their trust, it is then that you could make them do as you please. In Ibarra’s case, this would mean that he could then do as he pleases, that his plans of a school will push through. But the story tells us that he did not do this, and thus, his plans did not go as planned.
Another example of this situation is the question, what is stronger, the oak or the reed? Anyone could easily answer it is the oak that stands tall, proud and high above everything that has greater power than the reed. Reality is that it is the reed that is stronger than the oak. In front of a great storm, the reed would bow down to the storm, even in the lowest possible way as if it is already kissing the earth. No matter how strong the storm may be, the reed would always protect itself by “giving up” to the great winds surrounding him. No matter how strong the winds may be he would come out unscathed. The oak in front of a great storm, on the other hand, stands with his head high on the ground. There would come a time, in front a great big wind that the oak would crack and his branches would fall down and eventually, it will lose to the storm.
Pride, especially too much of it, never did anyone any good. What the advice suggests, succumbing to your opponents, is the most difficult thing to do; but it is easily the best thing to do. When I asked my mom how she and dad got through many problems in their lives, she told me that it is a matter of giving. Giving in the sense that when my father’s hot tempered, she just lets him be and she avoids shouting or nagging and he does the same to her. If my father wants something to be done to the house, she lets him do what he wants, and in the same way, he also lets her do what she wants. I reckon that it is action-less action.
In my opinion, there can never be just one specific group of beliefs that a person lives by his lifetime because for me, it entails a mixture of everything you learn with life as you go on. Safe it is to say that you can never learn everything from only one source; you have to have other sources. In my case, it is a mixture of a little from everything and it is what suits me the most. In Taoism, these are the tow advices that I really believe in and I think are most needed by anyone.
What I find amazing in these two is the fact that I have heard so many people say it so many times and it is only now that I actually learn where it comes from. The fact that it has saved and helped me from so many situations before is what I find most interesting about it. In that way, it is not just a teaching or a lesson inside a classroom set-up. In this light it becomes more attainable and believable. It is non-restrictive and still it actually tells you to do something. Hard as it is to explain, these advices are exactly that, they came from wu wei and these example are, I believe, what most of us needs in the hassle and bustle of our daily lives.
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What is very ironic though is that this giant leap forward is not only a leap toward success. As the bad comes with the good, this leap forward also meant a leap toward bigger challenges, pressures and obstacles. It is no wonder then how our elders, seeing the way we live nowadays, sigh and say that things were so much easier back then. With the availability of resources that will make everything easier, there is no more room for errors. Only perfection is expected of everything and thus, the fast paced and stressful life of today. Most of the time, then, all we do is worry over matters that are important to us but did not happen as we hoped it would. In the same way, we, of course, do not accept this outcome, fight it and then get ourselves into more trouble.
But this is actually solved by simple advices I have learned from Taoism, as emphasized in wu wei or the action-less action. It stresses that in the midst of everything, one should be like a swimmer, where the best way to go is to swim with the current and not against it. It is becoming one with how nature is, with how things are. In the discussion of Taoism, I picked out two quotations, previously provided, that, for me, tell the most interesting pieces of advice.
Advice 1: “Things don’t turn out the way they are supposed to. But what can you do? You must take life the way it comes to you and make the best of it.” –Life of Pi
The best piece of counsel I have received in my life is that nothing is perfect. We cannot assume that everything will be exactly the way we want it to be. There will always be the ditches in the road and the wrong turns we take from the main road and we can never stop this from happening. It simply is just the way things are. I don’t mean that one has not to worry about things just because it is like that. Worrying is a natural part of the human mind and there is no reason that we shouldn’t worry. This worrying, in fact, is quite positive as it helps us concentrate more and focus on getting to our end goal. What I mean by accepting the way things are is that the “things” I am referring to are the end product of what happens around us. If the milk has already spilled, it is then useless to cry over it. One must learn to move on.
On the very first time that I had not received a medal for class, I was in one of my most depressed moods. I felt like such a failure. It was the same feeling when I fell in love and had my heart broken for the very first time last year. But I would always remember my mom’s lecture about my too idealistic perception of things. “All you have to do is do your best and if things still did not work out, then maybe it is not really for you.” With this, she ends her statement saying that instead of sulking around, I should learn my lessons and then use them to live a new one.
As I have, for so many times, learned in my sixteen years of my life, failure would always be a part of our lives. They are similar to the crosses we carry each day and the similarity is that we all have one. I have mine, you have yours and they have theirs. It is inevitable. The only thing we could do is live our lives the way we want it to. We should experience each day and live as if it will be our last. If somewhere along the way we made a mistake, this should not stop us from living life. There are women who got pregnant in the early years of their lives, raised their children alone but still managed to become successful in their lives. The success stories of formerly small scale businesses like Aristocrat Restaurant, SM malls and Jollibee is a good example. They all started the same way: a small business, a dream, some problems and determination and yet the obstacles in their way never stopped them from doing anything. It is just a matter of dreams and making things work that make these stories successful.
If we exude happiness and contentment in our lives, chances are the same aura will be experienced by the people around us. If we are happy with our world and the way things are going for us, then the people that care for us would be happy and contented too. They will also exude the same thing and affect the people who care for them. It takes only one person to change something and it helps to think that we could take part in this magnanimous thing. Imagine that: if we just enjoy our lives, then the people around us will enjoy theirs too. As the saying goes, smile and the world will smile with you.
We just take life as it is. We take pleasure in the good things and endure the bad. There is no point in carrying bitterness around for so many years. You could only waste a lot of energy and just end up poisoning the people around you with it.
It is actually similar to driving. It is inevitable that you could be in an accident, or that you may hit something, or worst someone. There will always be that chance. But that doesn’t mean that you should not drive anymore. All you have to do is take it as it is, be careful in driving and then if you make a mistake, learn from it and employ it in your life. There would always be faults in our lives and something is bound to end up wrong; but again, every song has a coda, whether it crashes or it fades away, but it is no reason not to enjoy the music.
Advice 2: “Never is force opposed with force, instead, it is overcome with yielding.”
In high school, one of my favorite subjects was Filipino Literature. I was a big fan of Rizal’s novel and I learned a lot from them. One of these pieces of wisdom was from the character Pilosopong Tasyo. He was the town’s wise man. Often, he is thought to be lunatic, as he speaks in ways undecipherable to most of the townspeople. But his words often hold as the greatest piece of advice in the novel. One of these advices is what he gave to the protagonist, Crisostomo Ibarra. It is similar to the quote given in our lecture on Taoism. He told the protagonist, “Ang umilag sa punglo ay hind karuwagan. Ang humarap sa kamatayan ay katangahan.” (To avoid a bullet is not cowardice, but to look death in the eye is carelessness.) It was a point where he told Ibarra that the he should first kiss the hands of his enemies and do as they wish before his plans, of setting up a school for the children of the town, could work.
At Ibarra’s end, he had difficulty following the advice of Pilosopong Tasyo. This is understandable because he is asked to bow down before his enemies, and yet what his plans are not going to be harmful to the people. Clearly, this is the last thing he wants to do. This is the last thing we all want to do. Like all advices, this is easier said than done. It is the easier option to succumb to your instinct and attack your enemy the minute you get hurt than to bow down to him. But we always have another option, and in this case, it is the way of the Tao.
Water, which has represented the Tao, will wear down a rock in the end; however big or strong it might be. Yielding to the forces around us does not mean we give up. It is just pretending to give up, doing as what your opponents ask of you. Only in this manner, you are actually manipulating them too. When they assume that you are already seeing it in their way, they would think that you will be one of them. This would make trust easier to come by and when you gain their trust, it is then that you could make them do as you please. In Ibarra’s case, this would mean that he could then do as he pleases, that his plans of a school will push through. But the story tells us that he did not do this, and thus, his plans did not go as planned.
Another example of this situation is the question, what is stronger, the oak or the reed? Anyone could easily answer it is the oak that stands tall, proud and high above everything that has greater power than the reed. Reality is that it is the reed that is stronger than the oak. In front of a great storm, the reed would bow down to the storm, even in the lowest possible way as if it is already kissing the earth. No matter how strong the storm may be, the reed would always protect itself by “giving up” to the great winds surrounding him. No matter how strong the winds may be he would come out unscathed. The oak in front of a great storm, on the other hand, stands with his head high on the ground. There would come a time, in front a great big wind that the oak would crack and his branches would fall down and eventually, it will lose to the storm.
Pride, especially too much of it, never did anyone any good. What the advice suggests, succumbing to your opponents, is the most difficult thing to do; but it is easily the best thing to do. When I asked my mom how she and dad got through many problems in their lives, she told me that it is a matter of giving. Giving in the sense that when my father’s hot tempered, she just lets him be and she avoids shouting or nagging and he does the same to her. If my father wants something to be done to the house, she lets him do what he wants, and in the same way, he also lets her do what she wants. I reckon that it is action-less action.
In my opinion, there can never be just one specific group of beliefs that a person lives by his lifetime because for me, it entails a mixture of everything you learn with life as you go on. Safe it is to say that you can never learn everything from only one source; you have to have other sources. In my case, it is a mixture of a little from everything and it is what suits me the most. In Taoism, these are the tow advices that I really believe in and I think are most needed by anyone.
What I find amazing in these two is the fact that I have heard so many people say it so many times and it is only now that I actually learn where it comes from. The fact that it has saved and helped me from so many situations before is what I find most interesting about it. In that way, it is not just a teaching or a lesson inside a classroom set-up. In this light it becomes more attainable and believable. It is non-restrictive and still it actually tells you to do something. Hard as it is to explain, these advices are exactly that, they came from wu wei and these example are, I believe, what most of us needs in the hassle and bustle of our daily lives.
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Friday, January 26, 2007
answers YOU are looking for
well. i am getting really irritated by the sigsheet turnout. so, i amde your (you know who you are) lives easier. the answers are here. read it. find it. and before you get my signature, another thing: leave a tagboard message.
do not think that this is power trip. i want you to know me. this is how i think it will be best-through my blog. so read it. read the entry. read the whole of it. if you want, read the blog itself. if you son't it's ok. just be ready for my questions when you ask me to sign your sig sheet.
again. my requirements:
-answer to my question for you(ask you batch head)
-tagboard message
-answers to my "random" questions
1.Where did you take your default pic?
~ In my brother's futon in Capiz. This was taken with my holiday crush *smiles* and my cousin.
2.What exactly are you wearing right
now?
~ Victor's jersey when he was in St. Andrew's
3.What is your current problem?
~ worrying about how the shifting process will go
4.What makes you most happy?
~john. ^_^ but seriously right now happiness would mean successful shifting process from european languages to accountancy.
5.What's the name of the song that
you're listening to?
~ news from the tv background
6.Has anyone close to you died
recently?
~ hay.. :(
7.Do you ever watch mtv?
~ if i watch tv, it's either a drama series or a film.
8. Whats something that really annoys
you?
~ people who do NOT do what they are supposed to do
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Chapter 1:
1.Middle name:
~ bereber (this is pronounced FAST
2.Nickname(s):
~ steph, tep, tate, tati. haha
3.Current location:
~ house
4.Eye color:
~brown
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Chapter 2:
1.Do you live with your parents?
~ yeah
2.Do you get along with your parent(s)?
~ absolutely!!
3.Are your parents
married/separated/divorced?
~married. gladly.
4.Do you have any Siblings?:
~ 1 fabulously dark and tall brother.
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Chapter 3: Favorite...
1. Ice Cream:
~ haagen dazs dulce de leche. i would NEVER replace this with something else if i have it in my hands.
2.Season:
~ when i'm with j. hehe
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Chapter 4: Do You..
1.Write on your hand:
~ no..
2.Call people back:
~ well... calling back for me is rather subjective,. :P
3.Believe in love:
~ finally.
4.Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
~ no. in a certain position, yeah.
5. Have any bad habits?
~ being snobbish.
6. Any mental health issues?
~ You want the truth?! you can't handle the truth!!
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Chapter 5: Have You...
1.Broken a bone:
~ not yet
2.Had physical therapy?:
~ nope.
3.Gotten stitches:
~ nope
4.Taken painkillers?
~ yes. YES!! YEEEEEEEEEESS!!
5.Gone SCUBA diving or snorkeling:
~ no. but i would LOVE to!!
6.Been stung by a bee:
~ what a joy: NO!
7.Thrown up at the dentist:
~ no. i love my dentist.
8.Sworn in front of your parents:
~ is shit a swear word!?
9.Had detention:
~ no!! :)
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Chaper 6: Who/What was the last
1.Movie(s):
~ kasal kasali kasalo
2.Person to text you?:
~ i think.. it was jo. or maybe jhau. or was it barry, if it is jhau and barry, it's about our usual breakfast after our first period every TF
3.Person you called:
~ classmates in spanish 12-13. philo 10, soc sci 2, geog 1, pe 1, math 11. i was absent. :P
4.Person you hugged?
~ muuuuuummy. :D
5.Person you tackled?
~ muuuuuummy. :D
6.Things you touched?:
~ cellphone!!
7.food you ate?
~ home cooked menudo. yummy!
8. drink you drank?:
~ powdered orrange juice.
9. Thing you said:
~ if by some chance, i cannot shift to baa (i hope not), it's either business economics or statistics (maybe, journalism or ECE) for me.
do not think that this is power trip. i want you to know me. this is how i think it will be best-through my blog. so read it. read the entry. read the whole of it. if you want, read the blog itself. if you son't it's ok. just be ready for my questions when you ask me to sign your sig sheet.
again. my requirements:
-answer to my question for you(ask you batch head)
-tagboard message
-answers to my "random" questions
1.Where did you take your default pic?
~ In my brother's futon in Capiz. This was taken with my holiday crush *smiles* and my cousin.
2.What exactly are you wearing right
now?
~ Victor's jersey when he was in St. Andrew's
3.What is your current problem?
~ worrying about how the shifting process will go
4.What makes you most happy?
~john. ^_^ but seriously right now happiness would mean successful shifting process from european languages to accountancy.
5.What's the name of the song that
you're listening to?
~ news from the tv background
6.Has anyone close to you died
recently?
~ hay.. :(
7.Do you ever watch mtv?
~ if i watch tv, it's either a drama series or a film.
8. Whats something that really annoys
you?
~ people who do NOT do what they are supposed to do
---------------------------------------
---------------------------
Chapter 1:
1.Middle name:
~ bereber (this is pronounced FAST
2.Nickname(s):
~ steph, tep, tate, tati. haha
3.Current location:
~ house
4.Eye color:
~brown
---------------------------------------
---------------------------
Chapter 2:
1.Do you live with your parents?
~ yeah
2.Do you get along with your parent(s)?
~ absolutely!!
3.Are your parents
married/separated/divorced?
~married. gladly.
4.Do you have any Siblings?:
~ 1 fabulously dark and tall brother.
---------------------------------------
---------------------------
Chapter 3: Favorite...
1. Ice Cream:
~ haagen dazs dulce de leche. i would NEVER replace this with something else if i have it in my hands.
2.Season:
~ when i'm with j. hehe
---------------------------------------
---------------------------
Chapter 4: Do You..
1.Write on your hand:
~ no..
2.Call people back:
~ well... calling back for me is rather subjective,. :P
3.Believe in love:
~ finally.
4.Sleep on a certain side of the bed?
~ no. in a certain position, yeah.
5. Have any bad habits?
~ being snobbish.
6. Any mental health issues?
~ You want the truth?! you can't handle the truth!!
---------------------------------------
---------------------------
Chapter 5: Have You...
1.Broken a bone:
~ not yet
2.Had physical therapy?:
~ nope.
3.Gotten stitches:
~ nope
4.Taken painkillers?
~ yes. YES!! YEEEEEEEEEESS!!
5.Gone SCUBA diving or snorkeling:
~ no. but i would LOVE to!!
6.Been stung by a bee:
~ what a joy: NO!
7.Thrown up at the dentist:
~ no. i love my dentist.
8.Sworn in front of your parents:
~ is shit a swear word!?
9.Had detention:
~ no!! :)
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--------------------------
Chaper 6: Who/What was the last
1.Movie(s):
~ kasal kasali kasalo
2.Person to text you?:
~ i think.. it was jo. or maybe jhau. or was it barry, if it is jhau and barry, it's about our usual breakfast after our first period every TF
3.Person you called:
~ classmates in spanish 12-13. philo 10, soc sci 2, geog 1, pe 1, math 11. i was absent. :P
4.Person you hugged?
~ muuuuuummy. :D
5.Person you tackled?
~ muuuuuummy. :D
6.Things you touched?:
~ cellphone!!
7.food you ate?
~ home cooked menudo. yummy!
8. drink you drank?:
~ powdered orrange juice.
9. Thing you said:
~ if by some chance, i cannot shift to baa (i hope not), it's either business economics or statistics (maybe, journalism or ECE) for me.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
sa kadahilanang wala akong masulat
ano ginagawa mo kahapon ng 3:00pm?
:/ nasa g-squared,sa macapagal kumakain ng seafood.
ano brand ng suot mong shorts/pants
ngayon?
:/ ung tshirt, ung pinamimigay ng pinagtratrabahuan ni mama, ung short, ewan ko, pero ubod siya ng ikli.
ano wallpaper ng pc mo?
:/ ako at si "j". isa sa mga larawan namin sa capiz noong holiday
ano oras ka nagising today?
:/ 9am
ano gagawin mo sa tuesday pag may free
time ka?
:/ nagyong darating na martes? mag-aaral. mag midterm sa 25.
ano pinapakinggan mo ngayon?
:/ ang katahimikan ng kusina namin kapag walang kumakain.
ano kulay ng suot mo ngayon na shirt?
:/ gray
ano ginawa mo kahapon?
:/ nag-aral ng espanol. kumain sa g-squared. umuwi ng bahay. natulog ng 2 oras. nagsimba. kumain uli. nag-edit ng nasa blog.
anong huling mall na pinuntahan mo?
:/ abah! matagal na ito. kasi noong decemeber, bago ako umalis papuntang capiz ang huli kong punta ng mall. teka. saan nga ba? ay mali! nakapag-mall na pala ako nitong enero. sa waltermart sa makati. nag-starbucks ako. reward sa sarili. hehehe.
anong huling tv show na pinanood mo
kagabi?
:/ sana maulit muli- inulit lang ata un. ang haba haba eh.
anong color ng shirt na suot mo
kahapon?
:/ sa instituto cervantes-puti. sa simbahan..... puti rin!
anong pinaka memorable na ginawa mo
the whole week?
:/ ung team building seminar ng org ko. nakakapagod. at nakakasakit ng kabuuan ng katawan. pero mabuti na alng, hindi na masakit ngayon.
ano huling kinain mo kagabi?
:/ eclair.
ano huling song na kinanta mo?
:/ sana maulit muli. naiimpluwensyahan na ako ng tele-serye na yon. nakakainis. si gerald anderson kasi eh. puknat.
ano una mong nakita pagpunta mo sa
loob ng mall?
:/ security guard na naninilip ng bag ng may bag.
anong pakiramdam mo ngayon?
:/ tinatamad akong mag-aral.
bakit mo yun nararamdaman?
:/ ewan ko ba. wala ako sa mood. ngunit matapos to, mag-aaral na ako.
ano balak mong gawin this summer break?
:/ mag-aaral sa umaga, mag papakasasa sa hapon/gabi. un eh kung matutuloy ang plano ko. at plano niya.
anong mall balak mong puntahan next
week?
:/ ayokong isipin. ayokong makakita ng mall ngayon.
anong place ang gusto mong puntahan sa
ngayon?
:/ bahay ng lola ko sa capiz. magpapakasasa sa paggiging masaya.
ano fave place mo?
:/ kwarto. kwarto ko sa boarding house.
ano fave tv show?
:/ one tree hill. sabi nga ni chesa, post modernismo daw un. mahilig na ang tao sa puro "bitch".
ano landlyn # mo?
:/ hindi mo na kailangang malaman pa.
anong balak mo gawing pag graduate?
:/ magtratrabaho ako. kailangan.
ano sa tingin mo ang tunay na #1, GMA
o ABS?
:/ sabi ng ac neilsen gma, totoo un, pero mas bilib ako sa abs-cbn.
ano color ng tshirt na madalas mong
suot?
:/ puti.
anong oras na?
:/ ala-una ng mainit na tanghali.
anong makikita sa harap ng bahay nyo?
:/ bahay uli.
ano ang madalas nyong pag-usapan ng
barkada?
:/ kung anu-ano. teka. chismis ang tawag sa kung anu-ano na un, in general.
ano gagawin mo pagkatapos nito?
:/ mag-aaral. seryoso na.
ano last movie na napanood mo sa
sinehan?
:/ world trade center ata. o baka naman casino royale. di ko na matandaan.
anong movie balak mong panoodin this
week sa sinehan?
:/ ayoko ng eragon. un lang masasabi ko.
ano fave mong channel?
:/ kung ano ang may magandang palabas.
ano last book na binasa mo?
:/ great political thinkers. pathetic.
ano balak mong bilhin this week?
:/ damit. :)
:/ nasa g-squared,sa macapagal kumakain ng seafood.
ano brand ng suot mong shorts/pants
ngayon?
:/ ung tshirt, ung pinamimigay ng pinagtratrabahuan ni mama, ung short, ewan ko, pero ubod siya ng ikli.
ano wallpaper ng pc mo?
:/ ako at si "j". isa sa mga larawan namin sa capiz noong holiday
ano oras ka nagising today?
:/ 9am
ano gagawin mo sa tuesday pag may free
time ka?
:/ nagyong darating na martes? mag-aaral. mag midterm sa 25.
ano pinapakinggan mo ngayon?
:/ ang katahimikan ng kusina namin kapag walang kumakain.
ano kulay ng suot mo ngayon na shirt?
:/ gray
ano ginawa mo kahapon?
:/ nag-aral ng espanol. kumain sa g-squared. umuwi ng bahay. natulog ng 2 oras. nagsimba. kumain uli. nag-edit ng nasa blog.
anong huling mall na pinuntahan mo?
:/ abah! matagal na ito. kasi noong decemeber, bago ako umalis papuntang capiz ang huli kong punta ng mall. teka. saan nga ba? ay mali! nakapag-mall na pala ako nitong enero. sa waltermart sa makati. nag-starbucks ako. reward sa sarili. hehehe.
anong huling tv show na pinanood mo
kagabi?
:/ sana maulit muli- inulit lang ata un. ang haba haba eh.
anong color ng shirt na suot mo
kahapon?
:/ sa instituto cervantes-puti. sa simbahan..... puti rin!
anong pinaka memorable na ginawa mo
the whole week?
:/ ung team building seminar ng org ko. nakakapagod. at nakakasakit ng kabuuan ng katawan. pero mabuti na alng, hindi na masakit ngayon.
ano huling kinain mo kagabi?
:/ eclair.
ano huling song na kinanta mo?
:/ sana maulit muli. naiimpluwensyahan na ako ng tele-serye na yon. nakakainis. si gerald anderson kasi eh. puknat.
ano una mong nakita pagpunta mo sa
loob ng mall?
:/ security guard na naninilip ng bag ng may bag.
anong pakiramdam mo ngayon?
:/ tinatamad akong mag-aral.
bakit mo yun nararamdaman?
:/ ewan ko ba. wala ako sa mood. ngunit matapos to, mag-aaral na ako.
ano balak mong gawin this summer break?
:/ mag-aaral sa umaga, mag papakasasa sa hapon/gabi. un eh kung matutuloy ang plano ko. at plano niya.
anong mall balak mong puntahan next
week?
:/ ayokong isipin. ayokong makakita ng mall ngayon.
anong place ang gusto mong puntahan sa
ngayon?
:/ bahay ng lola ko sa capiz. magpapakasasa sa paggiging masaya.
ano fave place mo?
:/ kwarto. kwarto ko sa boarding house.
ano fave tv show?
:/ one tree hill. sabi nga ni chesa, post modernismo daw un. mahilig na ang tao sa puro "bitch".
ano landlyn # mo?
:/ hindi mo na kailangang malaman pa.
anong balak mo gawing pag graduate?
:/ magtratrabaho ako. kailangan.
ano sa tingin mo ang tunay na #1, GMA
o ABS?
:/ sabi ng ac neilsen gma, totoo un, pero mas bilib ako sa abs-cbn.
ano color ng tshirt na madalas mong
suot?
:/ puti.
anong oras na?
:/ ala-una ng mainit na tanghali.
anong makikita sa harap ng bahay nyo?
:/ bahay uli.
ano ang madalas nyong pag-usapan ng
barkada?
:/ kung anu-ano. teka. chismis ang tawag sa kung anu-ano na un, in general.
ano gagawin mo pagkatapos nito?
:/ mag-aaral. seryoso na.
ano last movie na napanood mo sa
sinehan?
:/ world trade center ata. o baka naman casino royale. di ko na matandaan.
anong movie balak mong panoodin this
week sa sinehan?
:/ ayoko ng eragon. un lang masasabi ko.
ano fave mong channel?
:/ kung ano ang may magandang palabas.
ano last book na binasa mo?
:/ great political thinkers. pathetic.
ano balak mong bilhin this week?
:/ damit. :)
Friday, January 19, 2007
yay to the world!
finally! i am back home and again, i have eaten something that does not come from some freaking canteen in the well hidden structures behind the big big trees that UP calls canteens. at least, this is another meal where everything actually has taste. finally!
aside from being away for most of the week,everything had been a blast. sunday was no good though, it was a boooooooring commute from cavite to quezon city alone and having my brother's mp3 player made it a whole lot better. but one thing's for sure, and this i can sure anyone who has ridden or plans to ride, it is a good place to learn about filipinos. you just watch them and you'll know something. one is the filipino individualism. usually, this means being responsible for yourself, doing all that you can for the end, which usually means material satisfaction and sometimes, even the abstract thing. but filipino individualism is something else. this means that a rule made for the general public should be followed. but if certain circumstances happen and one is the victim of that circumstance, he becomes an exception to the rule. a perfect example: in an mrt ride, i saw a manang murmured, hindi naman dapat nakaupo ang bata, di naman yan bayad, libre yan eh. dapat kinakandong. kawawa naman iyong mga nagbayad. hindi makaupo. two days after, i saw the same manang who made that same comment with, take note, three children, all passing the height requirement to be considered free and all three sitting on the the supposedly seats of the mrt regular commuters. how's that?! go figure.
monday.. monday was a pain for my body. my first exercise for a few months now brought strain to my otherwise dormant body. curse pe1. but that was just my initial reaction. the following day was such a big pain that i ended up cursing every single time i move any of my limbs. i found myself wishing i had done more exercise in the last few months. but the following day was also a major review day. i have lot's of things coming up this week, and friday, today, is my only rest day because for this weekend i am bound to be married to my geography book.
unlike the first two days, wednesday was such a huge hit. first up was the Araw ng Aliw at Baliw of the MCO applicants. god! it brought back so many memories from the time i was an applicant. more than naything, congratulations to harry and kaye. great ANAB presentations. *applause*
for the afternoon it was lunch at UST. toured the campus with lorraine and ate at this fabulously cheap yet delicious place in the carpark. boys? i saw not one single cute guy, but lorraine's company after a looooooooooong while is such a blessing. the fair to ust was cheap and it surprised me because it is near UP. that's a good thought. at least i know there's someone, aside from shena, that i can instantly run to. if ever something happens. and! another great discovery. cereals make great desserts. i am yet again on a big food high.
thursday was the mco team building seminar and the unbearable pain in my legs, back and arms. for some reason, i actually ran around UP and in the second leg our team lost. but hey, at least you get to enjoy. :D after the whole event my legs were already aching but since i want to exceed that limit of pain i worked out on my dormitory bedroom spreading sweat all over the floors. the result? this morning my body was aching all over. it is pain, but nevertheless, it feels good.
more good news: last night, i had a kilig text conversation with someone,the someone from capiz, instead of sleeping. i ended up studying philo 10 and texting him. i am not regretting anything. here was how it went:
j: h!
s: h!-wrong send?
j: gising ka pa?
s: oo naman, kung hindi, mumu sana kausap mo ngayon.
j: bkit, kilala mo ba kung sino kausap mo?
s: uh, bj?
j: john to. kamusta ka na?
s: oi! ngayon ka na lang ulit nagparamdam ha!
j: globe ka kasi, eh smart ako kaya di kita matext.
s: sabi ko naman kasi sa 'yo mag-globe ka na.
j: oo ba, basta pag naubusan na ako ng katext sa smart, mag-g-globe na ako agad.
s: kamusta ka naman?
j: ok naman, namimiss ko na nga kayo ni toto eh.
s: bakit nga pala gising ka pa?
j: di ako makatulog. pinukpok ko na nga ang sarili ko ng martilyo, di pa rin ako makatulog
s: marami ka lang iniisip kaya ka ganyan
j: sus. eh ikaw bakit di ka pa tulog ha?
s: nagbabasa kasi ako eh.
j: ows. baka naman iniisip mo lang iyong bf mo.
s: ang kulit mo talaga. wala nga akong bf.
j: eh di iniisip mo ung nag-court sa 'yo.
s: wala na iyon. tinapos ko na yon. di ako tulad mo na napakadaming babae no.
j: pano mo naman nalaman yon? haha. joke.
s: aminin mo na kasi eh.
j: joke nga lang. wala na nga akong gf dito. brineak ko na lahat. ayaw ko na mag-court. nakakapagod.
s: aww.
j: mga babae kasi dito manloloko. pero ok lang, wala naman akong sineseryoso.
s: tama yan. wala munang seryosohan. marami pa jan.
j: ubos ko na nga eh. hahaha. joke. nanloloko lang naman sila. ayoko na.
s: ok lang yan. makakahanap ka din ng para sa u.
j: ilan na bang lalaki naloko mo?
s: seryosong tanong ba yan?
j: ikaw talaga! inuubusan mo naman ako ng lalake eh!
s: ahahaha. patawa. :P
j: anong gagawin ko diyan pag nagbakasyon ako?
s: walang humpay na pasyal, kwentuhan saka iyong computer lesson na gusto mo.
j: hmm. di niyo naman ako pababayaan diba?
s: oo naman siempre! kami bahala sa u.
j: hindi ka pa ba matutulog?
s: hindi pa. nagbabasa nga ako eh. tulog ka na.
j: ok. wag mo naman akong ubusan ng lalake diyan ha. hahaha. joke. gud nite na. sweet dreams. tc lagi. mwaaaaaah!
s: wag kang mag-alala. titirhan kita. g'eve. sweet dreams too. kisses. :)
so far so good. only academics to worry about, and in my world, that is normal. i am in for another week of heavy reviewing, but i am not complaining.
yay to world! :)
aside from being away for most of the week,everything had been a blast. sunday was no good though, it was a boooooooring commute from cavite to quezon city alone and having my brother's mp3 player made it a whole lot better. but one thing's for sure, and this i can sure anyone who has ridden or plans to ride, it is a good place to learn about filipinos. you just watch them and you'll know something. one is the filipino individualism. usually, this means being responsible for yourself, doing all that you can for the end, which usually means material satisfaction and sometimes, even the abstract thing. but filipino individualism is something else. this means that a rule made for the general public should be followed. but if certain circumstances happen and one is the victim of that circumstance, he becomes an exception to the rule. a perfect example: in an mrt ride, i saw a manang murmured, hindi naman dapat nakaupo ang bata, di naman yan bayad, libre yan eh. dapat kinakandong. kawawa naman iyong mga nagbayad. hindi makaupo. two days after, i saw the same manang who made that same comment with, take note, three children, all passing the height requirement to be considered free and all three sitting on the the supposedly seats of the mrt regular commuters. how's that?! go figure.
monday.. monday was a pain for my body. my first exercise for a few months now brought strain to my otherwise dormant body. curse pe1. but that was just my initial reaction. the following day was such a big pain that i ended up cursing every single time i move any of my limbs. i found myself wishing i had done more exercise in the last few months. but the following day was also a major review day. i have lot's of things coming up this week, and friday, today, is my only rest day because for this weekend i am bound to be married to my geography book.
unlike the first two days, wednesday was such a huge hit. first up was the Araw ng Aliw at Baliw of the MCO applicants. god! it brought back so many memories from the time i was an applicant. more than naything, congratulations to harry and kaye. great ANAB presentations. *applause*
for the afternoon it was lunch at UST. toured the campus with lorraine and ate at this fabulously cheap yet delicious place in the carpark. boys? i saw not one single cute guy, but lorraine's company after a looooooooooong while is such a blessing. the fair to ust was cheap and it surprised me because it is near UP. that's a good thought. at least i know there's someone, aside from shena, that i can instantly run to. if ever something happens. and! another great discovery. cereals make great desserts. i am yet again on a big food high.
thursday was the mco team building seminar and the unbearable pain in my legs, back and arms. for some reason, i actually ran around UP and in the second leg our team lost. but hey, at least you get to enjoy. :D after the whole event my legs were already aching but since i want to exceed that limit of pain i worked out on my dormitory bedroom spreading sweat all over the floors. the result? this morning my body was aching all over. it is pain, but nevertheless, it feels good.
more good news: last night, i had a kilig text conversation with someone,the someone from capiz, instead of sleeping. i ended up studying philo 10 and texting him. i am not regretting anything. here was how it went:
j: h!
s: h!-wrong send?
j: gising ka pa?
s: oo naman, kung hindi, mumu sana kausap mo ngayon.
j: bkit, kilala mo ba kung sino kausap mo?
s: uh, bj?
j: john to. kamusta ka na?
s: oi! ngayon ka na lang ulit nagparamdam ha!
j: globe ka kasi, eh smart ako kaya di kita matext.
s: sabi ko naman kasi sa 'yo mag-globe ka na.
j: oo ba, basta pag naubusan na ako ng katext sa smart, mag-g-globe na ako agad.
s: kamusta ka naman?
j: ok naman, namimiss ko na nga kayo ni toto eh.
s: bakit nga pala gising ka pa?
j: di ako makatulog. pinukpok ko na nga ang sarili ko ng martilyo, di pa rin ako makatulog
s: marami ka lang iniisip kaya ka ganyan
j: sus. eh ikaw bakit di ka pa tulog ha?
s: nagbabasa kasi ako eh.
j: ows. baka naman iniisip mo lang iyong bf mo.
s: ang kulit mo talaga. wala nga akong bf.
j: eh di iniisip mo ung nag-court sa 'yo.
s: wala na iyon. tinapos ko na yon. di ako tulad mo na napakadaming babae no.
j: pano mo naman nalaman yon? haha. joke.
s: aminin mo na kasi eh.
j: joke nga lang. wala na nga akong gf dito. brineak ko na lahat. ayaw ko na mag-court. nakakapagod.
s: aww.
j: mga babae kasi dito manloloko. pero ok lang, wala naman akong sineseryoso.
s: tama yan. wala munang seryosohan. marami pa jan.
j: ubos ko na nga eh. hahaha. joke. nanloloko lang naman sila. ayoko na.
s: ok lang yan. makakahanap ka din ng para sa u.
j: ilan na bang lalaki naloko mo?
s: seryosong tanong ba yan?
j: ikaw talaga! inuubusan mo naman ako ng lalake eh!
s: ahahaha. patawa. :P
j: anong gagawin ko diyan pag nagbakasyon ako?
s: walang humpay na pasyal, kwentuhan saka iyong computer lesson na gusto mo.
j: hmm. di niyo naman ako pababayaan diba?
s: oo naman siempre! kami bahala sa u.
j: hindi ka pa ba matutulog?
s: hindi pa. nagbabasa nga ako eh. tulog ka na.
j: ok. wag mo naman akong ubusan ng lalake diyan ha. hahaha. joke. gud nite na. sweet dreams. tc lagi. mwaaaaaah!
s: wag kang mag-alala. titirhan kita. g'eve. sweet dreams too. kisses. :)
so far so good. only academics to worry about, and in my world, that is normal. i am in for another week of heavy reviewing, but i am not complaining.
yay to world! :)
Sunday, January 14, 2007
being a camera whore
i am a camera whore.
one very important comment. no one can stop me from being one. it's not narcissitic. it's simply-vanity. :)
if someone wants to take my picture, it takes a few seconds and then right before the camera takes record of me, i smile in the sweetest way i know, and then as it flashes, i smile even more and try harder to make my eyes stay open in presence of the flashing white light. this not only happens once. it takes a looooong looooong time to make me hesitant in front of the camera. i love taking pictures of myself and of others and of course others with me. it's not something i would deny of being, but the only things is that i refuse to be taken in pictures in cameras of people i do not know. an example: stranger's phone. but back to the topic. point here is that i make sure every singe photo i was ever in that is to be posted somewhere by someone should always pass by par. par meaning my standards of my own personal beauty. oh! and another thing. i hate pictures where i look bleh. so i delete them, whether the owner of the camera agrees. or not.
but recently someone made me so frigging hapy that i realized, it is not how you look in the photo, it is about who you are with.
so in final memory of a crush that i really crushed on. here is what i hope, will be my final blog about you.
one very important comment. no one can stop me from being one. it's not narcissitic. it's simply-vanity. :)
if someone wants to take my picture, it takes a few seconds and then right before the camera takes record of me, i smile in the sweetest way i know, and then as it flashes, i smile even more and try harder to make my eyes stay open in presence of the flashing white light. this not only happens once. it takes a looooong looooong time to make me hesitant in front of the camera. i love taking pictures of myself and of others and of course others with me. it's not something i would deny of being, but the only things is that i refuse to be taken in pictures in cameras of people i do not know. an example: stranger's phone. but back to the topic. point here is that i make sure every singe photo i was ever in that is to be posted somewhere by someone should always pass by par. par meaning my standards of my own personal beauty. oh! and another thing. i hate pictures where i look bleh. so i delete them, whether the owner of the camera agrees. or not.
but recently someone made me so frigging hapy that i realized, it is not how you look in the photo, it is about who you are with.
so in final memory of a crush that i really crushed on. here is what i hope, will be my final blog about you.
it is not about how you look, it is more about who you are with.
survey from the goose
1. Where is your cell phone?:
somewhere under the messy pile of pillows and blankets on top of the monstrosity i call bed.
2. Your hair?:
my hair was done by my monstrous bed.
3. Your mother?:
australia. feeding kangaroos, i suppose,
4. Your father?:
new york. eating what he bought from chinatown.
5. Your favorite item?:
my laptop, darling! :)
6. Your dream last night?:
it involved nikolai and some really really sexy scenes. and no, i am not kidding!
7. Your favorite drink?:
iced tea. all time favorite. it's a classic.
8. Your dream car?:
BMW SUV. :D
9. The room you are in?:
the living room
10. Your fear?:
that i won't get pass college.
11. What do you want to be in 10years?:
rich. filthy rich.
12. Who did you hang out with lastnight?:
my brother and the rest of the sakristans.
13. What you're not?:
definitely something that involves you. (angst of the love-less)
14. Muffins?:
the ones in gb1. i forgot what they are called.
15: One of your wish list items?:
let's be practical and materialistic. i don't care about unattainable world peace at this moment. i want a pink 60gb ipod. oh wait. a room within UP, passed by all the jeepneys in the unversity, with DSL connection and airconditioner, but costs less than 3k. plus one more thing. ako lang mag-isa sa kwarto. at the very least, 1 lang dapat kasama ko.
(Where is 16?)
gone with the fireworks at MOA.
17. The last thing you did?:
texted BJ.
18. What are you wearing?:
would it bother you if i say nothing?
19. Your favorite book?:
eleven minutes.
20. The last thing you ate?:
liempo.
21. Your life?:
doing fabulous! i just dreamt of nikolai, goddamit!
22. Your mood?:
cheerful.
23. Your friends?:
celebrating their 18 bday this year.
24. What are you thinking about right now?:
my mom feeding kangaroos in down under.
25. Your car?:
yet to be drive by moi. until i legitimately learn how to drive.
26. What are you doing at the moment?:
answering this frigging survey
.27. Your summer?:
hopefully boring in the mornings yet fabulous during the evenings.
28. Your relationship status?:
single. as always. :P
29. What is on your tv?:
it is, suprisingly, turned off.
30. When is the last time you laughed?:
last night- stories from ivan.
31. Last time you cried?:
happily, it has been a loooong while.
somewhere under the messy pile of pillows and blankets on top of the monstrosity i call bed.
2. Your hair?:
my hair was done by my monstrous bed.
3. Your mother?:
australia. feeding kangaroos, i suppose,
4. Your father?:
new york. eating what he bought from chinatown.
5. Your favorite item?:
my laptop, darling! :)
6. Your dream last night?:
it involved nikolai and some really really sexy scenes. and no, i am not kidding!
7. Your favorite drink?:
iced tea. all time favorite. it's a classic.
8. Your dream car?:
BMW SUV. :D
9. The room you are in?:
the living room
10. Your fear?:
that i won't get pass college.
11. What do you want to be in 10years?:
rich. filthy rich.
12. Who did you hang out with lastnight?:
my brother and the rest of the sakristans.
13. What you're not?:
definitely something that involves you. (angst of the love-less)
14. Muffins?:
the ones in gb1. i forgot what they are called.
15: One of your wish list items?:
let's be practical and materialistic. i don't care about unattainable world peace at this moment. i want a pink 60gb ipod. oh wait. a room within UP, passed by all the jeepneys in the unversity, with DSL connection and airconditioner, but costs less than 3k. plus one more thing. ako lang mag-isa sa kwarto. at the very least, 1 lang dapat kasama ko.
(Where is 16?)
gone with the fireworks at MOA.
17. The last thing you did?:
texted BJ.
18. What are you wearing?:
would it bother you if i say nothing?
19. Your favorite book?:
eleven minutes.
20. The last thing you ate?:
liempo.
21. Your life?:
doing fabulous! i just dreamt of nikolai, goddamit!
22. Your mood?:
cheerful.
23. Your friends?:
celebrating their 18 bday this year.
24. What are you thinking about right now?:
my mom feeding kangaroos in down under.
25. Your car?:
yet to be drive by moi. until i legitimately learn how to drive.
26. What are you doing at the moment?:
answering this frigging survey
.27. Your summer?:
hopefully boring in the mornings yet fabulous during the evenings.
28. Your relationship status?:
single. as always. :P
29. What is on your tv?:
it is, suprisingly, turned off.
30. When is the last time you laughed?:
last night- stories from ivan.
31. Last time you cried?:
happily, it has been a loooong while.
Saturday, January 06, 2007
thing about love
the thing with love is this. it has to be more than hormones to make things work. and though it would be very idealistic (nevermind happy) to find someone that would make the "thing" appropriately "bond" you have going on work, it, most of of the time, does not happen to the rest (of us) that lives in the world.
what my friend(s) sometimes don't understand is that getting attracted is actually different from falling in love. love, if such a thing even existed(i assume it does or else i have to refute everything i just wrote), is ephemeral, like literature. it would stand the test of times, as all our romantics would come to say.
i get attracted all the time. to really intelligent male species to the absolutely gorgeous men and everything in between. but i haven't really gotten to the ONE yet. the one who i am willing to have my first heart break yet. still looking. still looking. and i am not in the hurry to find one.
my cousins repeatedly asked me in our vacation in Capiz whether or not i have a boyfriend. of course, i answered no. but they would go like i just said the most impossible thing in the world. what they do not realize is that is their kind, the Prinsipe Juans of the World that keeps me from answering anyone (plus of course my mom). why invest in someone? people always leave.
but of course these things speaking through my clicking fingers in the keyboard would only be one thing, bitterness. hey, i am not denying it. it's part of life and slowly(as i am now doing so) i am finding the logical explanations as to even WHY these are happening. but suprisingly the same boys in my christmas vacation, the same ones who questioned my not having a boyfriend, answered the answer for me.
why does this happen? just because. just because it was meant to be. and a heart ache (however complicated could always be passed through. and in the end of the day, you have your brother(thanks marvs), your cousins (thanks boys) and your family to back you up.
to jp: yes it hurts to have someone break your heart, and disappointing as it is, you must know that when i broke his heart, i spared mine and his from a bigger heart break that would destroy our friendship.
and besides. you (and the rest of our cousins) are on of the reasons i should be careful in answering boys. since you all are players, i should know the game you are playing, therfore i should know the game my(?) boys are playing with me .
what my friend(s) sometimes don't understand is that getting attracted is actually different from falling in love. love, if such a thing even existed(i assume it does or else i have to refute everything i just wrote), is ephemeral, like literature. it would stand the test of times, as all our romantics would come to say.
i get attracted all the time. to really intelligent male species to the absolutely gorgeous men and everything in between. but i haven't really gotten to the ONE yet. the one who i am willing to have my first heart break yet. still looking. still looking. and i am not in the hurry to find one.
my cousins repeatedly asked me in our vacation in Capiz whether or not i have a boyfriend. of course, i answered no. but they would go like i just said the most impossible thing in the world. what they do not realize is that is their kind, the Prinsipe Juans of the World that keeps me from answering anyone (plus of course my mom). why invest in someone? people always leave.
but of course these things speaking through my clicking fingers in the keyboard would only be one thing, bitterness. hey, i am not denying it. it's part of life and slowly(as i am now doing so) i am finding the logical explanations as to even WHY these are happening. but suprisingly the same boys in my christmas vacation, the same ones who questioned my not having a boyfriend, answered the answer for me.
why does this happen? just because. just because it was meant to be. and a heart ache (however complicated could always be passed through. and in the end of the day, you have your brother(thanks marvs), your cousins (thanks boys) and your family to back you up.
to jp: yes it hurts to have someone break your heart, and disappointing as it is, you must know that when i broke his heart, i spared mine and his from a bigger heart break that would destroy our friendship.
and besides. you (and the rest of our cousins) are on of the reasons i should be careful in answering boys. since you all are players, i should know the game you are playing, therfore i should know the game my(?) boys are playing with me .
Monday, January 01, 2007
vacation bliss
after ten days of crazy food bingeing, outings to different places like the fish pond of a nearby state university, fishing (or at least the attempt to fish), walking in the rain, spending time with my new (and old) found cousins, being with the crush of my holiday life. i would hate to go home.
it was, rather, IS of pure bliss. getting away from the hassles of my college life is a realy bliss i would keep going back to. if it was unnecessary i would have not bought with me my stupid reading materials. but since i AM a nerd and i want to shift, some sacrifices had to be made. but nevertheless, i had fun. even if this time fun meant bringing Great Political Thinkers to the swimming pool, and studying half the day while my cousins are enjoying themseleves in the chlorine-saturated water and finally convincing me to partake in swallowing and spitting the chlorine water on ourselves. i, once again, had something to go back to every single december. :)
anyway.. new year. what does it mean? resolutions right? though i am not one that makes resolutions with the rest of the nation just to watch themselves breaking it on the second, i would make one this time. and i WILL make these through the year.
resolutions:
1. Though shan't do unto others what you don't want others to do unto you.
--In short. keep your love life simple. if he won't call. don't call. he won't answer, don't answer. you don't want him to text? don't text him. if he breaks your heart, break his too. same applies to the people i call friends. ehem. ehem.
2. do what's in your comparative advantage
--from soc sci 2. hard to understand? simple. MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
3. live your life
--there's nothing like waking up the day after smiling, thinking about how happy last night was. although of course, don't mind how your head throbs as if an anvil falls on it every minute because of the alcohol you just took inside your already damaged system of a body.
--(())--
and yeah. crush update. i am happy. i am satisfied. ;) i'll see him again on december. if i am lucky, in the summer. but the heart always yearns in absence.
to JTC aka- john or worse KUTONG. (although i know you will NEVER get to read this) i am really REALLY freaking happy.
p.s. it is only in this holiday that someone mad my heart flutter with just a tickle. corny. but this is a REALLY HUGE crush. :)
it was, rather, IS of pure bliss. getting away from the hassles of my college life is a realy bliss i would keep going back to. if it was unnecessary i would have not bought with me my stupid reading materials. but since i AM a nerd and i want to shift, some sacrifices had to be made. but nevertheless, i had fun. even if this time fun meant bringing Great Political Thinkers to the swimming pool, and studying half the day while my cousins are enjoying themseleves in the chlorine-saturated water and finally convincing me to partake in swallowing and spitting the chlorine water on ourselves. i, once again, had something to go back to every single december. :)
anyway.. new year. what does it mean? resolutions right? though i am not one that makes resolutions with the rest of the nation just to watch themselves breaking it on the second, i would make one this time. and i WILL make these through the year.
resolutions:
1. Though shan't do unto others what you don't want others to do unto you.
--In short. keep your love life simple. if he won't call. don't call. he won't answer, don't answer. you don't want him to text? don't text him. if he breaks your heart, break his too. same applies to the people i call friends. ehem. ehem.
2. do what's in your comparative advantage
--from soc sci 2. hard to understand? simple. MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.
3. live your life
--there's nothing like waking up the day after smiling, thinking about how happy last night was. although of course, don't mind how your head throbs as if an anvil falls on it every minute because of the alcohol you just took inside your already damaged system of a body.
--(())--
and yeah. crush update. i am happy. i am satisfied. ;) i'll see him again on december. if i am lucky, in the summer. but the heart always yearns in absence.
to JTC aka- john or worse KUTONG. (although i know you will NEVER get to read this) i am really REALLY freaking happy.
p.s. it is only in this holiday that someone mad my heart flutter with just a tickle. corny. but this is a REALLY HUGE crush. :)
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