Rain Above My Head

It suddenly hit me today, this evening, this very moment.

It is just that, simply that. I have been caught so much in my past that sometimes I confuse it with my reality. I have been confused much too much that I cannot seem to move on from where I am. It is just that, evidently that, that I have been having pains trying to remember any of it at all.

I would not hurry myself. I would take my time, the longest there is. Why hurry? I know I will not be stuck here forever. I will get off from this. This is just a phase. I repeat, this is just a phase.

I will move on. Don't worry. I will get over you. I am on that road now. In fact I see the finish line already. Like hiking nine mountains, it is hard, being with you, seeing you and most of all. It is very tiring hating you. It is hard. Mainly because we move in the same circles, we enjoy the same people and I cannot throw that down the drain. No matter how you constantly rain above my head, disturbing my thoughts, influencing my opinions and shaking my reality I respect that youa re your own institution and I cannot do anything about that.

I am done with the bitching and hating. I am just recovering because a year is enough. I ahve my own road to take now, the coach is already there, just waiting for me to hop in.

Excuse me, but I am just taking my time prolonging everything. I am taking my time because surely at the end of that road, there would not be any sight of you. Not anymore.